warning: very very very very very wordyyyyyyyyyyyy post! 

warning: loads of vulgarities and rudeness in here!

DO NOT READ IF YOU DON'T WANNA GET PISSED LOL.

went out on a mission on friday afternoon, then to look for ziyi yang liyan after yang's interview!

dinner at sembawang shopping centre's kungfu paradise! roamed around daiso after that^^

saturday brought baby for her vaccination in the afternoon! 

sunday beautiful sunday @ esplanade! to junction 10 for dinner and taohuey after that!

here comes my angry wordy post, this is in my opinion, readers may disagree but no offence okeh.

monday morning rushed to hospital cos grandfather was in a serious condition.

unfortunately he passed away in the afternoon :/ 

unhappy point 1: 

i may not be close w my dad's side. even my dad isn't ._. but i know i should have some respect.

how can you say that someone die means someone die liao, funeral no use? 

how can you be so damn brainless and heartless -.-

next time you die, which i am not surprised if it happens anytime soon, 

with your lousy character making so many people hate you,

i would really want to cremate you immediately without holding a funeral. 

save money, save trouble for family members, your own grandchildren too, no?

who knows, i don't even have to be this evil, 

karma may already bite you, your son/grandson may not even want you LOL.

the whole funeral timing i don't think you even appeared for 24 hours tsk. 

once you're there you rush all of us that you need to go home early. 

you complain that going to the funeral spends all your money on the cab fare.

your mother spend almost all the nights there to shou ye, you don't even care for her,

but give her sooooo much trouble, scream at her so much 

your girlf did nth, climb one overhead bridge you also heartpain? -.-

so much in my mind but i'm just gonna shut up for now urgh. 

i always tell myself not to put in efforts anymore when they ain't appreciated,

and i believe everyone thinks this way la duh.

it's a cycle can't you see?

with your fucking lousy character, no wonder your friends come and go -.- 

unhappy point 2:

i swear i really really really really really LOATHE guys who are immature.

okeh to be clear i mean guys of age 20 and above.

yes i know there's a picture which says it's unfair to guys but girls can do things and get praised still.

but no. 

guys exist in this world because they're to protect girls if not why be guys? 

if they are such a pussy then be the ones who lie in bed all day during menstral cramp,

and carry a big belly for 9 months then suffer the pain of giving birth.

not just that, the list goes on, housework, cooking, breastfeeding, even taking care of your parents -.-

how can a guy walk around and pull girls' hair just for fun? or wanna punch their face? 

this is bad enough.

but look at the atmosphere hello? at a funeral, during a ritual? 

********** on a side note, some guys younger than 20 are also damn ridiculous okeh. 

when you got no friends, don't whine, reflect.

jolly well stop and change what people dislike la walao. 

so much to say about, after that you diam diam? -.-

i was weak and had not seen what the world was like in the past.

but now i know how girls should be treated okeh. at least, girls who deserve it.

if you want me to be frank, then good i'll just say it directly next time.

you don't end up come talk so much hor.

unhappy point 3:

where is fairness yo.

yes in the past or maybe even now the oldest siblings have more responsibilities.

but when there's trouble, i think you have to adapt to change?

you shouldn't expect the oldest sibling to settle more stuff alone right? 

likewise, the oldest sibling shouldn't think he can just ditch everything just because he's oldest.

why can't everyone share? or at least look at each's situation before balancing?

and by saying situation, i mean individual.

going overseas in december is all expenses on my own. i swear. 

using my bursary and saving money like madness, all from me.

just because i'm going overseas it doesn't mean my dad has money.

do not go around trying to get him to sacrifice more when you already know what he has gone through,

and after all that he has done for you all.

i will not be quiet if any ridiculous requests happens. i will not. 

unhappy point 4:

i may be the only one in this entire hugeeeeeeeeeee family that dares to disobey my dad. yes me.

i can disturb him, scold him right in his face (for good things i mean) and even demand from him.

but be responsible for your own actions leh?

y'all made him angry since years back, ownself let him forgive you la.

don't come suck info from me and ask me to advise him please.

i may be a lil playful imp but i know to protect my family (excluding that useless gay shit)'s best interest.

DONE.

okeh la no more unhappy stuffs..................... i think? 

soooooooooooo i hope my grandfather is resting in peace now,

hopefully he'll find my grandmother and my uncle and all the ancestors up there ba?

life's short and sudden, cherish everything sigh. 

live everyday like it's your last, do whatever you can when you're still able to, don't leave regrets.

i miss ah ma and wai gong): #random.

lastlyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy after talking about all the sleepless nights,

it's finally 14th and the results are out! glad to say i can finally sleep welllllllllllllllllllllll!

i really really really thought i was gonna fail 2 modules tsk.

but i ended up passing all of them and even pulled up my gpa. not alot la, 0.01 LOL.

eh better than nothing right!!! i'm climbing at a snail speed but i'm happy with it!

the difficulty level's gonna get harder, i gotta chiong harder and not slack off :/

one and a half year more and it's all gonna be over!!!!!!!!!

not gonna depend on luck anymore, i wanna be at a level that i can be confident about my gradesss!!!

please let this determination stay w me through the whole next sem):

yupp soooooooooooooooo goodnight!!!