work.

been so long since i last blogged. feels really really long.
last weekend the boy came to fetch me from work on friday night,
headed back to clementi for dinner with the boy and his family!
then i stayed over till saturday! the boy drove to jurong point for us to look for nike shop!
then had dinner at newton circus with the boy and his family!
home-ed and the boy came to look for me on sunday again!
headed to town to search for mummy's present but couldn't find anything,
so we headed back to amk and we got everything, sucha waste of a time tsk.
so in less than 2 weeks, i've visited the doctor 3 times :/
first on one day before start of intern,
second on sunday morning because my tummy ached like madness and i had to take a jab :/
third was today morning when i had diarrhoea!
in fact i haven't been sleeping and eating well since intern started.
and we found out that my tummy always ache because i am nervous, anxious, panicking etc.
so many people are worried for me sigh.
i am really thankful for everyone who cares for me despite being so busy and tired.
i am really sorry for being such a burden sigh, i know i've said this upteen times :/
especially to my boyboy who has to keep taking care of me,
always taking up his time, making him run many trips for my sake when he's damn tired :/
i just really dk what to do already. feel so useless lol. what's my future gonna be?
i wish i could just quit school and let my life rot away.
really don't understand why i have to exist in this world :/
so tough to handle everything.
everyone explains everything and i become fine for a while but i keep waking up in the morning again.
and i really dk how to make myself stop panicking sigh.
what can i do, what can i do? :/